Stop, Don't Do It

In a previous post I mentioned how there is one individual within my group of friends that I just can't get along with, and that I was going to try to be better about it. And I have been better about it--all of us have. But there gets to be a point where you don't take it lying down, and you have to stand up for yourself and for your friends. You can't let someone walk all over you time and again and not set them straight once and for all. Yes, I realize sometimes our situations in life can be hard, but in no way does that mean you can take it out on the people who are there for you, the ones you call your friends. It's not right, and I don't want to be hurt by your comments nor do I want to see my friends hurt by them. You say things spitefully and cruelly. You can't try to pass it off as a joke because you noticed it hurt their feelings--it's not funny. At all. So try it one more time, mister, and you'll hear how I really feel.

Frost Bites Back

So last night one of my friends had a Frisbee game, so Rachel and I made our way over to it. We get there and--there's still snow covering the field. And I'm in converse. Not sure if you know this, but converse have absolutely no insulating capability. At all. Usually the games are only an hour and ten minutes (I think), but of course last night they played until 13 points. So the game went for two hours. Rachel and I had the hardest time walking home afterward. Our feet were so cold they were aching terribly. Then once we got home, it was painful to get my cursed shoes off. I was surprised to find my feet were still attached to my body.

Oh and my Mama called me last night to tell me of how the weather is supposed to be like on Thanksgiving Break. One day she told me of the high is 28 and the low is -5. SINCE WHEN IS MARYSVILLE THAT COLD?? It's ridiculous. AND it's supposed to snow both here and there the day I ride back to Washington with my friends. So I might make it back home if we don't get stuck in a blizzard and freeze to death, or slide off the mountain pass or something. That would be my luck.

I sent some letters out that I should have sent awhile back. I kind of suck at the sending of letters... I write replies the day I get the letter, but I don't actually end up sending the letter till way later. Shoot. My Bad.

Walking In a Winter Wonderland

It snowed all day yesterday! 12 feet! ... So maybe not that much, but definitely a few inches. And it currently feels like it's 17 degrees. Can we say cold?

Even better news though--I GET TO GO HOME BEFORE THANKSGIVING! So the plan was that on the day before Thanksgiving, my family would stop by good ol' Rexburg to pick me up on the way down to Utah. Now you see, my friends are coming down to see the premiere of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 on the 18th and leaving to go back home on the 20th. The thought that just occurred to me today was, why don't I just ride back home with them instead of waiting for my family to come down and get me? Brilliant, right? I know! So now I get to go home before we go to Utah and see my friends and some of my siblings that aren't able to get time off work on Black Friday! This has seriously made my day, for real.

Bitter Isn't Better

I used to get easily offended. Incredibly so, as a matter of fact. And I've been a lot better over the past year, but it's not easy sometimes. And I feel like it's been a lot harder since I've been here in Rexburg and I've been letting things get to me too much lately especially. So I have decided that I'm going to get better at just letting things go and not taking them seriously because it's seriously no fun always being mad or upset. It actually sucks. And I need to develop this habit not only for myself, but also for everyone else's sakes. And now that it's officially written for the world to see, I need to be held to this. So if you find me taking offense and being really bitter, just tell me bitter isn't better.

Once Upon Last Night...

We got coupons to Sammy's that were buy one pie shake, get one free. There were four of us. And for some reason we decided it would be a fantastic idea to each get two. Four people, eight shakes. Just a heads up, that is a very bad idea. I have never felt so sick. I hate vomit, I hate to vomit, I hate just about everything that has to do with vomit. But last night I would have gladly welcomed some if it had made me feel any better. Talk about one of the worst ideas we've ever had.

Before that we played Capture the Flag in the gardens with a ton of people. Not really that exciting because no one knew who was on what team, and there were just too many people. But we made the best of it. And it was pretty cold out, so they had hot chocolate set out for anyone that wanted any. So Rachel and I go to get some because at this point I can no longer feel my toes, and we meet this guy. Jake. The most arrogant jerk I have ever met. Good thing Rachel and I were together. She talked to him and tried to make the best of it and be nice, whereas I stood there just sipping my hot cocoa so I wouldn't say something I shouldn't. Can you say annoying? Blegh he just kept going on and on about how he's from Southern California and how California is the best state and there's no competition. Obnoxious.

But after that and after Sammy's we went back to the gardens with just us and a few new friends to play sardines. Way fun! And we're going back tonight after Stake Conference to have some more great times.

Shoot, did I mention yet that we saw JESUS at Sammy's?! Seriously, this guy looked more like him than anyone I've ever seen. Ever.

The End

It's November?

So surprise! It's November. CRAZY! Today I was looking on Facebook and I saw that my cousin's current status is "54 days till Christmas!" WHAT? That means that it's only 47 days till the last day of the semester... AH! I feel like time has flown by so fast here, yet I feel like I've been here for years. About a month after I got to BYUI I missed home and I couldn't wait to get back, but now it's really sad to think about. Plus our guy friends that we spend most of our time with won't be here next semester--they're all going off on their missions. It's truly an awesome thing, but it's still sad. Anyway...

To get onto a brighter topic-- So I was on Netflix looking for the movie Robin Hood that came out on DVD in September. I found it but it's disc only, so I would have to wait for it in the mail. Then I looked down the list at other Robin Hood related titles and what do I find? The BBC television series Robin Hood on instant play! I'd never seen/heard of it, but I like BBC, and I like Robin Hood. Stands to reason I would probably enjoy this show, right? So I watch the first episode and fall in love with it. Not even two weeks later and I'm already a few episodes away from having finished the series (3 seasons). I love it!

So Friday night we made a trip out to the dunes. I did not know that there were dunes around here until not that long ago. It kind of seems odd to think about. We had a pretty awesome time out there, though. We had a fire and got to meet a bunch of new people--it was great! I even earned myself the nickname of Smokey. I actually wonder if they remember my actual name... hmmm... Yeah so everyone was gathered around the fire and it was freezing cold out there, so the only place in the circle that had room up close to all the heated goodness was where all the smoke was blowing. I tied my beanie around my face so that I could actually breathe, but I couldn't prevent the tears from cascading down my face due to the burn of the smoke in the constantly. Hence the nickname Smokey.

We didn't really have a Halloween here and it really made me want sweets. Badly. So Saturday I went to Twizl Berry for the first time. DELICIOUS. No joke. Red velvet frozen yogurt topped with ridiculous amounts of candy? YES. It was definitely worth it. And when my family comes to get me for Thanksgiving, there's no way they're leaving here without trying it. There's no compromise on this one.

Ho-ly, it's NOVEMBER! HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 1! Need I say more? Yes, I do have my tickets for the midnight showing in Idaho Falls already, you best believe it. AND I ordered a movie t-shirt to wear for the premiere, and it should arrive here sometime this week. I'm so excited about it, I'm calm. Yes, that is possible.

So all in all, life is grand. I'm happy, I'm going to assume whoever reads this is happy, everyone is happy. Because life is good. I got another 100% on my Book of Mormon quiz this morning; Book of Mormon is the only class I have today and it's amazing; Kevin's taking Rachel and I to the store later (FOOD!), which means we are stopping to eat somewhere; there's FHE tonight; and I have a little bit of homework to do. Today is just another great day at BYU Idaho.

And I'm pretty sure this is the longest post I've ever written. Seems fitting considering I haven't been updating a whole lot as of late... Just lovin' life.

Kill Me Now

You know how there are some people you just can't get along with? Yeah, I've found one of those. I feel bad about always getting irritated with him, but then I'm around him and I remember why I always get irritated. And he's always around. He hangs out with the people I hang out with, so I'm pretty much stuck with him. Joy for me. I wish I could pretend like it's all good, but it is definitely hard. I guess I'll try to control my irritation in regards to him. I tell myself that everyday and yet it hasn't really worked yet. We'll see how well this works out. Wish me luck.

I'm Not Dead

Shoot, it's been awhile. Probably due to the fact that whenever I have down time I'm always at the guys' apartment. Possibly. Which is where I am at the moment. It's pretty much home these days, considering I'm only ever home to sleep. Anyway...

You know how sometimes you think to yourself, "Hey, I'm being ridiculous. I'm over-thinking things way too much, so maybe I should stop before I make things worse for myself." Well, that's definitely what I've been thinking for awhile now. But have I taken my own advice? Of course not, because I am a ridiculous person. We'll see how life turns out.

Books Are Delicious

The Mortal Instruments and The Infernal Devices series--if you haven't read them, I command you to do so. They happen to be amazing, and I'm pretty sure I'm in love with them. And you would be too if you read them. So go forth and read, saith Cannonballa.

You've Got Mail!

So I got an email today on my university email saying that I had a package waiting for me at the auxiliary services building. So we set out on an epic journey to find this mysterious, yet to be seen building. Come to find out it's in the middle of nowhere. So we get there and the lady brings my package to me, and it's HUGE. Okay, so maybe that's a bit of an exaggeration. But it was still big. And it was from my DQ friends, Grim-Graham, Koko, and Shnookums! Yes! Then I've gotta lug this thing back to the dorm, which isn't too close, but it was all good because I got a package from friends! I got in the door and got out my knife and cut right through that packing tape. Most random/awesome package ever! A coloring book with crayons, a vanilla candle that smells like a cupcake, a St. Louis sweater, a giant bag of Peanut M&M's, and a special kit that's for our knowing about only haha. So yeah, random but awesome! These are also the friends that bought me my dream bike for a going-away present. Yes, I am incredibly lucky. So that package pretty much just made my week. And I was having a pretty sucky week, so life is awesome now. I'm now loving life. Life is good. Now I just need to keep that in mind for when I think life sucks again...

Life Happens

So once upon a time, there was this girl who liked this guy. Mind you, this girl has liked this guy before, and he just liked one of her friends then. Anyway, back to the current story. This guy knows this girl likes him, and it's not weird at all. Everything's peachy. Then la-di-dah, one day this girl decides to find out who this guy likes, hoping it's herself. So she asks him. And it's not her. It's her friend. Shoot. Looking back, this girl should have realized this would happen, because it is the exact same situation she was in before, with the same guy. Turns out history really does repeat itself.

Suck.

You know how there are always times in life when things just suck, and you feel like a complete loser? Yeah, I'm having one of those times. And it royally sucks. So our whole dorm and a whole guys' apartment are friends, right (kind of my doing)? So all these guys plan a group date, and they all have dates to it. Three of those dates are my roommates. Can you guess who the loser is in this scenario? That's right, it's your's truly. Me. Suck. I mean I'm not a big date-lover, but still. Everyone is going except me. Saturday night, home alone. Science and scriptures, here I come.

Look Out!

Sometimes history repeats itself. But only sometimes...

Guuurrrrrl, Please

So you know that life doesn't always go according to plan, right? Yeah, sometimes it sucks. For a week I've been living in Rexburg now, and everything was all sunshine and daisies, rainbows and butterflies. Then last night rolled around. So la-di-dah, I'm doing my homework, we have FHE and I continue to finish my homework. The clock strikes ten and, wahoo! I am done! I get up and look around and... nothing. I can't find my roommates anywhere. So I text my one of them. Apparently, they left and thought I knew about it, and that I was choosing to stay home or something. Miscommunication and whatnot. That assumption would be incorrect. Anyways, they come home and the situation gets blown way out of proportion. Seriously, it was crazy. Eventually we got it all simmered down, so everything is fine now. I just keep telling myself that, hey, sometimes things suck. They don't go the way you want them to, whatever. The important thing is that you make things right, and you put what happened in the past. And preferably leave it there. It may be hard, but I'm going to attempt to take my own advice on this one.

Requiescat In Pace

So I start my morning off by waking up over an hour late. On the road by 5:00? Nope... try 6:20. Anyway, I'm excited to be going off to Rexburg and my Dad is driving me down there. So about a quarter of the way there, Dad gets a phone call from my aunt and pulls off on the side of the highway. My grandma just passed away, and when I first heard, I was sobbing. But she passed peacefully in her sleep, with my grandpa near, for which I'm very grateful. I love my grandma and I'll miss her a lot. And yet even though I just found out today, I'm not terribly sad anymore. She's at peace and she lived a long life, and she was loved by everyone who knew her. She truly was a wonderful person, and knowing she's in peace is a comforting thought.

Tomorrow morning I move into my dorm, and I can't wait. I'm not sure anymore if it's that it hasn't hit me yet that I'll be gone from home for over three months, or if it's just that I'm ready to be on my own (partly), but I'm not that nervous. This is where I need to be and my nerves aren't attacking me the way they probably would have a year ago. I like to think that I've grown up a little in the past year. I mean, thinking of classes and the work involved instills a little worry, of course. But I'm not overwhelmed, which is a miracle in itself. So as it stands I've had a bit of a rough day, but nothing that's really broken me down. I know I'm where I need to be, and that my grandma is resting in a better place.

Holla!

So once upon a time, I was a senior in high school, struggling to graduate. Most of my friends applied for college, but I was more focused on... graduating (one step at a time, I'd tell myself). Plus, I happen to be terrified of rejection (who isn't, really?). I didn't want to end up being the one who didn't get into college, where all my friends who applied had gotten in themselves. So I didn't apply. Then June 5, 2009 rolls around and guess what? I graduate! Time to live it up during the summer and just enjoy life. And it was a lot of fun. It doesn't really sink in until summer ends that I'm not going to college. For the first time after thirteen years of school, I don't know what to do. What's my goal in life? What do I really want? Definitely not to remain a slave at the Queen my whole life, I can tell you that much. So I made the decision that even if I get rejected, what can it really hurt to try? So I apply. And I actually get accepted to BYU-I!

So here it is, the end of August, and it's my last week before I head on out to Idaho. And as excited as I am to head off and start a new chapter in my life, it's a little nerve-wracking. Not to mention the fact that I'm terrible with goodbyes. So even though it's only for three and a half months, it's still hard knowing I won't see my friends or Primary class. And my family. I've lived my entire life in Marysville, Washington, and knowing I'll be leaving for months is still a little too weird for me to fully come to terms with. You know, I've always heard people saying different variations of, "I have to get out of here." I don't share those feelings though. I don't feel like I need to get out of Marysville. Marysville is my home, the only one I've ever known. And one thing is for sure- I'm going to miss it.